Tobin and Erin

I finished my school day; no, it wasn’t perfect, but it went better than I was expecting. Yeah, I still have a lot to do, but I’m suddenly not stressed about it. Thanks to the ‘rents….you guys are the best! Thank you for knowing when I needed you.

Erff and I have made a deal to treat ourselves to dinner if we pass this EEE test. Food is a great motivator, haha! If it works, I think I might take that approach on every exam. I wonder if we both have to pass? Or if we can add our scores together? Maybe we should have made a few ground rules.

I don’t even know what to do with myself, I’m bouncing off the walls here in the LC. OH…I was starting to get sick last night on top of everything…so I just went to bed and got up early to study some more. I think it worked! I’m feeling better already. You guys wouldn’t believe it; I got up at 5:20 in the MORNING. True, I slept through my alarm for 20 minutes, so I haven’t changed comPLETEly.

Going to pretend to work now! Bye.

On the one hand: I hate when people are hypocritical. Just BE REAL, be yourself! It’s so cool to see how different people are and to enjoy all the different flavors of humanity; why would you mess that up by trying to cover up who you really are? Cuz generally the more you cover up, the more boring you become.

On the other hand: Have you ever just been plain petrified to be who you really are? What if you open up just a little bit to reveal the you that’s inside, and you get hurt? Is it worth the risk? Is whatever inside really beautiful, like when a bud opens into a flower, or is it ugly and unappealing to everyone who sees it? No one will know til you try.

Can you get used to disappointment? “To defeat the fulfillment of hopes.” I don’t think anyone can ever get used to the initial pain. If you do, then you’re emotionally dead. If it doesn’t hurt to see a dream destroyed, then you’re no longer really hoping for the dream to become a reality. If you’re no longer hoping, you can’t be disappointed, according to Dictionary.com.

I miss home. See you guys in a few weeks! I love you all so very, very much. Zilla, let’s play some ball when I get home, k? Maybe it’ll be in the snow! Elyse, we could make a snowman then! I hope it does snow. Later taters!