Tuesday, March 28th, 2006
Don’t you wish sometimes that you would be all grown up and have it over and done with? I learn new things that God is trying to drill into my head every day, and yet it seems like I don’t make much progress. It’s kinda like treading water. I can just keep myself afloat but I’m not going anywhere fast. Aarg!
It’s a good thing, though. I really am learning something useful that will help me be able to serve the Lord better someday. I really am. That’s what I have to keep telling myself when I feel like I am right back where I started from.
I am kinda busy recently. With volleyball starting up (a lot more than I was expecting for a spring season) and choir and the AIAA project and all of my classes and spring break coming up that I am planning for, things are rather crazy. I like to be busy (I mean, who wants to be bored??), but I have to make sure I am not stressing all the time. Seriously, I am such a worry wort, and it doesn’t make life fun.
I have been discussing a lot in Non-Fiction, and it is hard. Hard to portray my faith correctly without sounding like a right-wing radical…hard to articulate my beliefs without bringing the Bible, God, or Jesus into it…hard to be the only one defending my position! That is a new one for me. But there ARE other people of faith in the class, I have discovered that. I think I am just still too conservative in my views for them. It’s also hard when I’m not sure about something, and that is the point they want to attack. I don’t even know myself yet! I feel so inadequate in a religious debate. I don’t feel like I know nearly enough!
Well, I need to do some homework. Bed by midnight! (rain or shine